Category Archives: Micah’s Rainbow

Finding Comfort in Micah’s Rainbow: One Mom’s Journey with Loss

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My grand entry into the babywearing world was 5 and a half years ago when I gave birth to my daughter. She was my first baby, but my fourth pregnancy after 3 losses. I knew early on that I’d always need to keep her close, as I had waited so long for her.

Our first carriers were a bjorn, moby and a ring sling. I eventually splurged and bought a Babyhawk Mei Tai when my daughter was 3 months old. As we moved along in our babywearing journey, we made our own ring slings. It wasn’t until I became pregnant with my second child who was born in the summer of 2010 that I found the babywearing community and woven wraps. And I’ve been hooked every since!

In January of 2013, I was cruising one of the babywearing chat groups on Facebook and stumbled upon Micah’s Rainbow. I immediately fell in love with the colors. I thought it was the perfect wrap for my newest little boy that was born in November 2012 and after reading Jennifer’s story, I really wanted to make her something from this wrap more than anything (hoping she’ll have them next week!). I think aside from the esthetics of the wrap design and color, I was most struck by Jennifer’s strength. I raise two children with Autism and can relate to the struggles of being given a diagnosis and working through the stages of grief while also caring for other family members. Its hard and I am constantly reminded of how lucky I am to be able to hold them every day. I admire that she and her family could rise up in such a trying time to strategize how Micah’s life would be celebrated and remembered. He’s everywhere now. Micah went global and is felt and thought about by people that have never met him, but will always hold a special place in our hearts and wrap stashes.

Thank you to the Canvasser family for sharing a piece of their lives with the world. Their strength, love, unity and positivity is admirable and powerful.

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Wrapping Micah Baby Up in Love

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6:04pm on October 6, 2012 at the University of Michigan’s C.S. Mott Children’s Hospital, Pediatric Intensive Care Unit

Micah loved to be worn and I loved to wear Micah. He and I had months of snuggling to make up for after a sudden illness, when he was just five weeks old, left him critically ill and sent him into renal failure. I could not hold Micah for nearly five months because he was too unstable and was hooked up to too many medical devices.

Surrounded by love, Micah slowly, very slowly, healed enough for me to hold him. As soon as I could, I wrapped Micah up and kept him next to my heart as often as possible. Life was complicated for Micah, who had zero kidney function, relied upon oxygen, and required a feeding tube. Nevertheless, babywearing allowed me to stay close to Micah, as I cared for his twin brother, pumped, and prepared his breastmilk to be tube fed to him.

Micah was in the neonatal intensive care unit for three months, before he was moved to the pediatric intensive care unit, where he stayed for an additional seven months. My mom snapped this photo of the two of us, in Micah’s PICU room, the day before my 29th birthday and just one week before Micah came home for the very first time. Micah was the healthiest and strongest he had ever been and we were thrilled to be preparing to finally bring our sweet baby home after being in the hospital for 10 long months.

Micah came home to us for four beautiful weeks, but then was re-admitted to the PICU because he caught a cold and didn’t have enough reserve to fight it off. Our hearts broke as we watched months of healthy progress slip away. One month after he was re-admitted, we lost our precious baby. Micah’s soul left this earth on December 11, 2012, yet his smile, strength and spirit are forever engrained in our hearts.

Micah melted into me whenever I wrapped him. He was calm, content and knew he was so deeply loved. Babywearing kept us close and helped us make up for our months of separation. I miss my sweet baby Micah every moment of every day. It is a heartache that will stay with me until the day I die.

Even so, my life is full of blessings. Micah’s twin, Zachary, is healthy and carries on Micah’s soul, love and spirit. Our hearts are full knowing that Micah’s Rainbow keeps other babies close to the ones they love. By honoring Micah in beautiful, meaningful ways, we share the deep love, strength and inspiration that Micah so generously gave to all of us every day of his short life.

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You can read more about Micah and his family here: Micah’s Story and here “Micah Smiles“.

In Honor of Micah’s Rainbow

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Although the purpose of this blog is to focus on why and where we wear, sometimes (often) what also carries a story. Today’s story is about the what… and so much more.

My daughter was born on August 21, 2012. For the first few months of her life we used our super comfortable, stretchy, Baby K’Tan. Babywearing quickly became central in our lives, and in late December I decided to start looking for more long term options so I could continue to wear her as she grew. =) I knew I wanted a woven wrap, and I was taken by the beautiful Girasol rainbows. Little did I know that this wrap search — perusing the internet for a simple piece of cloth — would have a much deeper and lasting impact.

As I explored some options, I came across Micah’s Rainbow. It is a story that has touched me in so many ways – it deepened my feelings about being a mother, it clarified how I understood the importance of babywearing, and it inspired me to find rainbows in every day, no matter how dark the clouds may be.

Baby Micah is a twin boy whose life was taken far too soon. You can read more about his story and his family here: Micah’s Story and here: Sometimes in Rising to Meet a Challenge We Find Deeper Love Than Ever Before

In honor of their son’s life, Micah’s parents started a project called, “Micah Smiles“; it is a fund to support C.S. Mott Children’s Hospital’s music therapy program, which was so important to them during their time in the hospital with their beautiful baby boys. They have developed a variety of creative and meaningful fundraisers, raising almost $40,000 since December 2012! They started the Zachary & Micah Giving Library for other children and families at the hospital (they’ve collected over 3,000 so far!), encourage folks to donate much needed blood to the Red Cross, have had cards made from a gorgeous “Tree of Courage” painting that hangs in the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit at C.S. Mott Children’s Hospital, and they worked with Elephant Ears and Girasol to weave an Exclusive woven wrap in Micah’s honor.

All proceeds from Micah’s Rainbow have been donated to the Micah Smiles Fund. The colors (shades of blue and yellow) of the wrap are a tribute to the hospital where he lived for most of his life, and “the rainbow at the top represents the joy that every little life that we love brings to us, no matter how long we have the pleasure of their company.” Exclusive Girasol, Micah’s Rainbow

I am thankful to the Canvasser Family for being such an inspiration of strength, courage, perseverance, and happiness during my first year as a mother. I am deeply honored to wear my precious daughter in this wrap, keeping us close, and reminding us to always find the rainbows. ;)

Love,
Lizzy

Here are a couple of candid photos from our first wrapping…

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